you know... I think I'm pretty screwed up. more than i imagined. =(
one day i'll just loose it. you can send me to a mental institution then.
its not the stress.
im just going insane. who knows why.
s h a w n at Wednesday, June 01, 2005
pon sch today. went lavi's house with daryl jess serene and of cuz lavi to play mahjong.... haha.. fun... den went to play tennis... tennis is kinda hard... very difficult to comtrol the ball lah... always hit until dunno where.... tennis looks simple but actually its hard... haha... or maybe i just suck...
den we went hunting for cheap MCs... mr teo suddenly said he wanted MCs... like wth... arghz... but we figured the MCs were to expensive... so we decided to forget abt it... yea... den went down to soccer finals at national stadium... sadz... surprise loss for vj... the anxiety nearly killed me... after extra time... score att 1-1... penalty shoot out... vj lost.... such a narrow loss... and b4 tt everyone was like thinking whether vj will be like Man U... end up... reli come out liddat... its almost cruel...
s h a w n at Wednesday, May 25, 2005
watched acjc choir concert last nite... was looking forward to it... to see how good they really are...
the concert started out with a super anti-climactic song... like reli short and nothing to show... just some happy sounding sacred song... they sang sunset... :S.... i didnt reli like the sound... dunno la...just wasnt impressed... i thought their musicality was quite bad... reli no feeling... another familiar song was pok pok.... aiyoyo... IMO la... messy...pitchy... ya...messy... but i liked their laughing part... sounded much more realistic den ours... ours like some siao langs liddat... their's was more natural... the rest of the songs... was pretty boring... the sound wasnt very impressive... but i must say their soft singing was very impressive... intense...
but it was still immensely boring. yea.
s h a w n at Tuesday, May 24, 2005
well well... and so it is confirmed... a new strain of bird flu is now in existence... transmitable to humans... ooo... the human race is gonna die soon... china... wad the hell is wrong with their chickens man... ugh....
i met a mad person at the bus stop today... i was freaking irritated... like really... this old man looked normal... but he started talking to me about world war two and dunno what... he was speaking very softly... like mumbling to himself... den i was like...HUURRHHH?... but he continue talking like tt... den i tried being polite... i said... sorry... i cant understand you... den he continued so more... blardie hell... i was sick... my nose was running like anything... my ears are blocked... i was irritated... den i said loudly... and with all the irritation i could muster..SORRY... I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU... but... he continue blabbering... and so...i just walked off... thinking about how much i hated mad people... den i told myself after awhile to have some compassion for them... yes shawn...have more love... but i still wish there is like some hotline i can call and say... hello... mad person sighted in hougang central... pls remove him. yes. throw him into an asylum when he wont be talking nonsensically to other normal people and drive them mad. OOO... shawn..have more love.
pretty tired.
s h a w n at Sunday, May 22, 2005
yesterday was SOV.... ahhh... it was magnificent... stupendous...marvellous...stellar... incredible... i thought we performed reli reli REALLY well... it was simply rapture singing like that in the esplanade...the acoustics are freaking good lah...u can just hear the entire hall just reverberate with the chord and all tt... reminds me of the church in germany...hahahaa...
my new favourite song is Go, lovely rose... we did it damn nicely... like how surprising... hahaha... it was simply magical... im listening to the recording of our first 3 songs now... joel's sis recorded...oh my blardie goodness gracious... we sound freaking pro... like reli some professional choir... i thought i opened the wrong file... but NOOO...its us!!!! how amazing....hahahahahaha...so cool so cool... Leonardo sounded reli reli good... it exceeded Gold with Honours... should be Gold with First Class Honours... or wadeva... wahahahahah...
our hebrew songs were well done too... and the chinese songs... nelson actually said good for one of the songs...cant remember which one... but if the man said it was good... it must have been fantastic...hahahahahahah... so sad SOV had to end so quickly... sighz... but it was great... im sure everyone went home feeling satisfied... our seniors also said they were very proud of us... yay...
the sad thing is... i think i left my black shirt and pants in the dressing room... i dunno where it is now..maybe i will try asking ard the choir room tml... yah...
LEEEOOOONNNAAAAAAAAAARRRRRDDDDOOOOOO.......
s h a w n at Wednesday, May 18, 2005
sighz....sighz....im feeling super nostalgic now... sov is tml... my second and final sov.... wah lao... i can just feel the lump forming in my throat... my 2 yrs of choral life is coming to an end. NNOOOOOooooo.... so fast so fast... i cant form my thoughts properly... im just so sad it has to end... sighz... i will miss vj choir soooooooo much.... so many memories... so many experiences... i never really felt the true feeling of winning and just the glorious sense of satisfaction when you realise all the hard work and sweat u put in was actually worth it...
sov... sov... im reli excited... yet... sad.... cuz i know...once it starts... it'll come and go like the wind... before i know it...it'll be over... lets go out with a blast year 2s... lets all sing our hearts out tml...
s h a w n at Monday, May 16, 2005
Gold With Honours baby!!!!!!!
RRRRAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRR!!!!
wait.... got one more...
SYF CHAMPIONS BabY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lalalala... vj choir rocks my freaking socks off my freaking feet!!!
so what if we only beat aj by decimal points... well good for them... but still better for us....ha... the anxiety yesterday nearly killed me man... i mean... i walked off the stage feeling rather good... like.. i thought we did quite well... of cuz not flawless but...still good... but everone started scaring each other after that lah... and we had like dunno how many hours to kill till the results... so it got reli reli bad... wad our sunset slightly flat, lily a lil sharp... pamugun messy and sharp... blah blah... den some of us started envisioning nelson's slightly disappointed smile after the thing... it got even worse after we heard aj perform... damn they're good... some of were like.. ok.. maybe they just surpassed us... den everyone got all worried again...
why were we feeling so affected by other choirs? cuz vj choir is like freaking competitive. why are we freaking competitive? cuz we have freaking a lot of expectations on us. its such a burden yet a motivation too. expectation from nelson... seniors... our illustrious heritage(by far the biggest burden to carry... hello... olympic champions last yr)... and of cuz expectations on ourselves.... we have made very big shoes for us to fill... and every competition we win... it gets bigger...
but in the spirit of wadeva-u-call-it... as long we we worked hard and gave it our best shot.. we've won.. yea... and i believe it reli was our best shot... flawed as it is...nevertheless still our best... yep... so.. rejoice...
the gold with honours didnt come just like that... contrary to what many believe... we worked reli hard... the syf champion title was a dream come true... we finally got it guys...
No man is an island.
s h a w n at Thursday, May 05, 2005
